How many times have you all come to this blog and read that I was going to make changes in my life and lose weight and create a lifestyle change and stop eating unhealthy, and begin exercising and get healthy again? I recently looked back and did some site searches to try to find those kinds of posts and I was able to find about 20 different times that I said I was going to do this. Well, guess what I am going to be writing about in this post? You guessed it, I am going to be making lifestyle changes.
What makes me think that this time it is going to work? Because I have had some harsh realties lately, and I am not afraid to talk about them. The more I deny and hide them the longer this is going to happen. So, here is my confessional post.
I have blood sugars that are consistently high. When I test my sugar and it is under 200, I am happy. I count my carbs in my food and take a true bolus only about 30% of the time. I guess the other 70%. I have gained 60 pounds since I was diagnosed 7 years ago. At the time of diagnosis I was a size 34-36 waist for pants and shorts. I have recently been buying size 42 waist pants and shorts…. this weekend, none of those fit, I had to wear my size 46 shorts that I wear to golf in. When I walk up one flight of stairs, yes just one flight of stairs, I am out of breathe. Let’s remember, I used to be play college football (Quarterback).
I spend way too much money on fast food because I am too lazy to cook and clean up the kitchen after I get home from work. I make excuses not to walk the garbage down to the dumpster because I am too lazy, so sometimes I put it on the hood of my car and drive it to the dumpster. When I have a stressful day I eat Pei Wei, plus Amanda’s leftovers. Then usually follow that up with some ice cream.
Who is this hurting? This is hurting myself. Me being lazy is not doing me any good at all. I am making myself live a shorter life by doing all of this stuff or lack of doing these things if you want to look at it this way. And you know what? I am tired of it! I am tired of not fitting into clothes. I am tired of spending hundreds of dollars a month on fast food. I am tired of buying coffee in the morning instead of making it, and then eating a breakfast sandwich along with it. I am tired of eating a huge, carb filled lunch with fatty foods and then drinking 4 cups of coffee in the afternoon to keep myself awake.
Starting tomorrow, there will be a new me. I will be motivated. I will be driven for success. Things are not going to stop me. I will lose weight. I will stop spending dumb money. I will get more done in the diabetes world.
This is me, keeping it real!
I’ll be cheering you on! I know you can do it!
In the infamous words of Alfred aka Bat Man’s side kick…”We fall so we can learn to pick ourselves up again” all you can do buddy is picki yourself back up and keep heading in the right direction again..
What amazing words. Thanks man.
Personally, I don’t make promises I know I won’t keep. Instead, I work on small items I know I can actually accomplish. For example, I vowed to eat a vegetarian meal at least once per week — not a big change, but something I KNOW I can do. Maybe its just my way of doing things, but I find actually accomplishing things (however minuscule they may be) motivates me to take things a step further. Do I need to do more? Sure, but at least I’ve accomplished a task I set out to do. I think setting grand goals is fine, but many people will never accomplish those things. Setting small goals and accomplishing them works better for me.
Scott,
Thanks for the comment. Imager with you 100% and that is exactly how I attack my goals. I set smaller goals and then by the end the larger goals will be accomplished because of that. I just haven’t even been able to accomplish the smallest of goals. Today I have. I made my own coffee and ate breakfast at home and am eating a chef salad for lunch. Today is the new beginning. Somebody introduced me to the theory of Kaizen and which just reinforces my believe in smaller goals. Thanks again.
Chris: Thanks for the honesty here. I’m the same way, and know exactly what you mean… I’m just so lazy and find myself doing many of the same things you describe. Mostly, just eating and not carb-counting and yes – gaining wait during the past year. Anyhow, it takes courage to follow-through even on some of the smaller items that should be so easy to do. I’ve written those same type of posts, and regrettably they aren’t carried out. I’ve been working more recently to get things under better control and just follow-through, so like you I’m eager to see some change. Hope to share that journey with you, my friend. Good luck making it happen, and please reach out should there be anything you need from my little corner booth.
Crossing my fingers, I know how hard it is. Calories are key to losing weight, but maintaining good bloodsugars at the same time just makes you feel better.
First time to your blog, saw you on twitter. Cheering you on.