Do you ever get the feeling that no matter how hard you are working or how much effort you are putting into something that you are just always falling behind? I’m sure I’m not the only one who feels this way. Sometimes I just feel that I can never catch up. No matter what it is. As soon as you try to catch up on your work, you fall behind on exercise. You try to catch up on tv / movies / reading, you fall behind on work. You catch up on e-mails, Twitter, Facebook, and you fall behind on family time. It is just one big revolving cycle. There is one thing that sometimes takes a back seat, but I need to make sure it moves right up to the front of the line, diabetes.
Too often I am skipping a test because I am busy and just want to eat quickly and guestimate my bolus. “I’ll just bolus for the carbs and then check later to correct”. How often do you find yourself saying it? Because I know I’m not the only one who odes that either. But as bad as I know it is, I still do it. Why? I guess it’s kind of like a kid knowing a stove is hot, but still touching it anyway? Or is that just a bad analogy?
Why does it have to be so difficult to manage at times? I do so well managing it for weeks at a time, but then I get complacent with my numbers and start to slack and then all of my hard work is now ruined with a few days of really high numbers. That’s it. I’m putting my foot down diabetes. You are not going to make me feel like crap ever again. I am going to test, test, test and test again when I feel like you are starting to win a battle over me. If you are gaining on me, I will send in reinforcements in the form of insulin and conquer you!
Take that one diabetes.
I don’t have diabetes, but I totally relate I always feel as if I’m falling behind. I don’t know how to get over it.