Last night I made it through my first, entire #dsma chat. I have participated before, but have never been able to make it all the way through. It was fun, but it definitely hurt my eyes really bad afterwards because there was just way too much to read and try to respond to. I mentioned that this chat gave me a lot of blog ideas because at certain times, when you live just a normal life, except you have diabetes, you don’t have much to blog about. I know that this whole food thing is something that people feel very strongly about. I read a lot of blog posts and tweets about food and how it affects some of your daily lifes, but to me, it doesn’t affect me much at all. This is also one reason that I am about 60 pounds overweight and haven’t had the best blood sugars lately.
Once I went on the pump, that is when all of my weight gain began, because I never thought twice about eating something in particular again. When I was on MDI, I thought about if I really wanted to eat something quick because I knew I had to take a shot. However, with the pump, I know there is nothing to it, but a few buttons and that’s it, now I can have that quick snack or extra serving if I wanted to. At times I think about going back to MDI because of how much less I ate and the more that I took care of myself.
I want food to be more of a hassle in my life and other diabetes related things. I want to be hassled and bothered by them for some time because for the past few years, I haven’t let diabetes get in my way, and I think my health and my care has gone down because of that. I have two weeks before my next endo appointment, and they will be looking at my weight very carefully, if it is not down some, they are going to take action because it’s been about 2 years that I kept saying I would lose weight on my own.
Starting today, I am going to act like I am still on MDI, however, I’m on a pump. I will calculate my own bolus and match it up with the pump to make sure that I still know how to do it. I will not eat anything unless I test my sugar. I will not have a snack just because all I have to do is hit a few buttons. For the next few weeks, I am going to live different. I am different because I have diabetes, I have to eat a different way…….. not because I have diabetes, but because I need to lose weight!